Building a House
Fa 3 dies
To those who've seen the Abyss up close and still keep a soul
Don't be afraid of the man who is not afraid to lose his life, be afraid of the man who doesn't careIn these last months I've seen something equivalent in my social interactions, repeated several times. About ten years ago, I tried to explain to an NCO (no, I wasn't in trouble; we were talking about my parents'... 3rd? cancer in a row; more were to come) that I no longer had patience. Not certain kinds. I used to try, and try, and try again to change people's minds, to win them over. And I stopped. "A" "b" "A!" "..." had the unfortunate coda of... "We agreed A!" "No, we didn't; you shouted it for a while, and I shut up myself; that doesn't mean we agreed." Which makes for some nice conversations... My life's changed, of late, I have several more plates than I'm able to juggle comfortably, so I've changed that last part. Once I reach the "..." stage, I keep there. I classify phone numbers and mails as spam, for instance. Which is, currently, kind of rude. Apparently, shouting someone your own True Vision of the universe isn't. Trying to change such people is a waste of time. And you sometimes see their "uh?" faces when they realize that there's no opposition... because there's nobody there. Minor treat, frankly, that doesn't make it worth to stay just to watch it. I think the mechanism is kinda similar to the one that I quote early on, with a slight twist. You see, "losing his life", as above, is pretty much at the top of the threat pyramid. Not the very top, but close enough. "Losing an argument" isn't. Which means that you can change the rules much more easily. He wants to argue? You don't. Game over. It's a fight (yes, you can do the same in a fight, often, right until you can't; Marc and Rory have the difference pretty clearly, if you get their books), and you don't have to join in. Or you can change the game: invite witnesses, break his jaw, start dating his sister, manage to expel him from the place... Whatever. Take care.
If you meet the Buddha, kill him.There are dragons and then, there are nuisances. Annoying intrusions of reality that hamper us. I wrote last autumn about tempting behaviours. The changes in our old school have prompted that very same behaviour in a person outside the school. If I had to guess, I'd say the shaking up of the koryu group has somehow threatened some image he had of the group[*]. He's, in theory, a proponent of deeply ingrained pacifism, and yet his actions these past 4+ months can't be described as anything but hostile. Not physically violent, but that's a qualification. One of my partners is trying to salvage a practice space. The current one was initially secured to practice the koryu, and it's hard for him to leave it. I consider it too expensive to stay, but we'll see what happens. There are options. This last two-three months, some of us have been trying to save some face for our former, hamon'ed, instructor. He's been digging in deeper, so it's come to nothing. Both him and us were chasing impossibles. All that comes from attachments. Ideas we try to pursue beyond their useful zone and into pain. The same, of course, applies to physical techniques. In my experience, specially to locks and takedowns. Take your own conclusions, and take care. [*] Weird image, if that. How can you practice iai and be so viscerally, mindlessly hostile to koryu?
Big whorls have little whorls That feed on their velocity; And little whorls have lesser whorls And so on to viscosity. Lewis F. RichardsonI was training Tatsumi, yesterday, and our senpai mentioned something about the circle in the system, and its continuity. I did not reach satori with that, just "Sato". In two ways, one of them relating to Tatsumi itself, the other relating to Kajukenbo. Again. It's not the first time I see these things, but it's interesting to find common mechanics, ideas... Some years ago, I started thinking of kajukenbo moves as some sort of F-clef design (small circles in proximity, wider, almost angular ones in distance); these days I mostly picture a big wave, but the idea remains.